I am EXHAUSTED! Wow I don't think I've ever been this busy in my life ever.

So I got the job at the law firm in Lancaster. I'm so glad I finally got my foot in the door and all thanks to my wonderful teacher. Well I still had to interview but I'm just glad they were willing to take a chance on me. I don't really know what's going on with the JET program. I'm supposed to get my letter soon but idk if they're even going to send people over. I'm also still working at the volleyball corner on nights and weekends. Besides that I'm usually in class or doing homework.

It's starting to wear on me. Especially after house sitting for my co-worker this weekend and working both Saturday and Sunday from 8:30 - 5 both days. I'm just so tired and need a day off. I'm trying not to push myself but I feel like I'm missing out on something if I'm not doing everything I can to improve things for my future. I even met with my financial advisor about my mutual funds and how to save for the future.

Mike's is passed out sleeping on the couch because he worked with me all weekend too. He finds out tomorrow if he got the job at Eddie Bower and he has another interview on Wednesday with Under Armour. He thinks he might take both jobs if he won't be getting a ton of hours from just one of them. I just hope this fast forward speed isn't forever.

I'll continue to keep you updated.

Plans are moving along well so far!

I recently got accepted into the JET program to teach English in Japan. In order to fully get accepted into the program I have to go and interview at the Japanese Embassy in Washington DC. I also got a call to schedule an interview on Friday for a probation officer job at Lancaster Courthouse. It would really be a great opportunity to get my foot in the door at the courthouse. I am just hoping that they will be willing to work around my class schedule. I only have class during the day on MON and WED from 1-2:15 so it shouldn't be that much of a problem. I have still been putting in random applications at places as well.

I'm not exactly sure what I really want to do yet. I have not heard back from a Judge's office that I recently applied to even after I went in and talked to them about the status of my application. That job would be my first choice since it most relates to my paralegal degree that I'm pursuing. If I do get into the JET program I will probably only take it if I do not already have a steady job here. I know what a good opportunity it is but non of the people I signed up with got in (which really stinks) and I also know I would probably only stay for a year which means I would still have to look for a job when I got back. So that is my option three.

I'm basically letting all of this up to God. I'm doing my part by getting applications in and doing follow up interviews but as for what job I get that is totally up to Him. Gotta keep praying about it, we'll see what happens.

As for my personal life it is going great. I love being home with my family and being able to help them around the house. Having Mike right up the street is great since I get to see him all the time. He is job hunting as well and has an interview Wednesday with the Lancaster Newspaper. He is also taking the Air Force Test the last week of this month so we will see what happens with that as well.
My Mom and I have decided to begin beekeeping lol. Yeah it is pretty random but we ended up going to a beekeeping seminar last weekend and it is a very doable hobby. It is not extremely expensive and it's something we can do together.

Ok that is all for now!

Ok so I finally have some direction of where I'd like to be in the next three months.

Recently Mike and I have applied to the JET Program to teach English in Japan. We'll be hearing back from them in February so until then we both have decided to get part time jobs somewhere. Most likely Mike will live with my Nana and Poppop while I live at home and then we'll both work somewhere in Lancaster. Upon hearing the news from the JET Program we will then make our moves from there. If we do NOT get into the JET Program Mike will immediately go into the Air Force. I on the other hand will either go back to grad school at Maryland State University or I will go to paralegal school part time while working. If we do get into the JET Program we will continue with Plan A after we get back from teaching English in Japan. Either way Mike will be joining the military and I will be pursuing higher education within my Criminal Justice degree (probably while also working).

More exciting updates to come..ooOOOoo.

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For the sake of keeping names private. I’m going to call this person J-douche. Anyway J-douche went to London with me and some people over spring break. He was basically by himself because he has no friends that were going so he latched himself onto our group. He did this because he was friends with my roommate at college (and no she wasn’t even there). Anyway he was actually ok most of the trip but the one huge thing that bothered me was that he was OBSESSED with Japan. Now, I like Japan. I’m a fan of their culture and language. I also like anime somewhat etc, etc. I’m even graduating with an Asian studies minor. But seriously…if your are THAT obsessed with it then there is something wrong with you. Anytime we saw something remotely Asian related while we were there he freaked out and has to see/touch/investigate it. We went to the London zoo and there were owls there. He was actually afraid of the owls because they are an omen of death in Japan. He kept acting uncomfortable and wanted to leave when we were near them…I was like are you serious?! Chill out for like one second, he was so uptight the whole trip. The part that made me the most mad was when he kept complaining about London. He was getting the opportunity to go to a different country that he has never seen before and that most people will never get to see in their lifetime and he was ungrateful about it. He kept saying how he couldn’t wait to go home. I was so annoyed. Then he continued to go on about how he would only feel comfortable living in Japan. The fact is he had visited Japan before but for only two weeks! He hadn’t even gone there for a semester to study or anything! There is no way in hell that you can get a feel of living somewhere after only two weeks, especially a whole different country, one that is so immensely different from the US. He just frustrates me to no end because he is one of those people that can’t look at their own faults. In order to be a better person I really feel that you have to look at yourself and be able to identify the bad things so you can be a better person. Maybe he does not care what kind of person he is which would not surprise me one bit but it still sucks to see someone like that.

On that note I have been trying to look at myself and isolate my own problems. I haven’t really ever talked about it but ever since elementary school I’ve had somewhat of a learning disorder. My mother even recently told me that one of my teachers in school said I would never finish college. Around 5th grade my teacher told my Mom that she should consider putting me on Riddlin. My Mom thought the teacher was wrong so she went to have me tested. It turned out I actually have a high IQ but my “explaining” skills as she put it were not “average” by any means. I honestly have a really hard time explaining anything. Recently I was asked to explain volleyball scoring to a group of people during common hour last week. I’ve been scoring volleyball since like 6th grade so I thought I would have no problem. I even printed out packets for the people there so that I would have materials to work off of. It went TERRIBLE! I couldn’t decide what to say first and after I would say a few things I would remember something else I should have said. It was just a mess. Finally the coach stepped in and helped out a little. I’m much better as explaining if I’m asked specific questions. That way I can give a specific answer instead of trying to think what I should tell them. I’m just hoping that this “disorder” won’t hold me back when I’m finished with school.

Sometimes I also think I’m arrogant even though people that are arrogant are a huge pet peeve of mine. I’m not sure if I’m actually arrogant but sometimes I say something to someone and then think…”wow, was that arrogant?” I really am not sure. I think I would want my roommates to tell me if I am like that ever so if you’re reading this tell me please! Also I have now been told by my brother and boyfriend that I am critical. I have NEVER realized this until this year. I’m not sure why I’m like this either. I’m not critical with all people just a lot of them. I think partially I feel like I’m being judged a lot when I’m in public so maybe if I judge them first in my mind then it won’t matter if they judge me back. Something like that anyway, I’m not quiet sure. Definitely have some self esteem issues in there. Anyway I’m going to try and work on it because I don’t want to be that person for the rest of my life. Even though I do judge those people though I still care about them. I honestly do care about everyone. Even people I dislike I still care about. Like J-douche. Even though he bothers me to no end I would never want anything bad to happen to him. Although I wouldn’t mind if he ended up living in Japan and not liking it, that way he might learn something lol.

P.S. I’ll be graduating in December!

This is some of the people I went to London with on Brighton Beach. I love them.

You can see the peir in the background. Overall it was a really amazing experience and I’d like to go back someday.

I'm not really sure how I feel about this. I got it in my e-mail as a forward. I'm not saying I agree/disagree with it. I'm still contemplating what I think about it.

"WHITE PRIDE"

I have been wondering about why Whites are racists, and no other race is . . . . .


Proud to be White

Michael Richards makes his point . . . . Michael Richards better known as Kramer from TVs Seinfeld does make a good point....


This was his defense speech in court after making racial comments in his comedy act. He makes some very interesting points...


Someone finally said it. How many are actually paying attention to this? There are African Americans, Mexican Americans, Asian Americans, Arab Americans, etc.

And then there are just Americans. You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction. You call me 'White boy,' 'Cracker,' 'Honkey,' 'Whitey,' 'Caveman'... and that's OK..


But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink .. You call me a racist.


You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you... so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live?


You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King Day.


You have Black History Month. You have Cesar Chavez Day.


You have Yom Hashoah. You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi.


You have the NAACP. You have BET..... If we had WET (White Entertainment Television), we'd be racists. If we had a White Pride Day, you would call us racists.


If we had White History Month, we'd be racists.


If we had any organization for only whites to 'advance' OUR lives, we'd be racists.


We have a Hispanic Chamber of Commerce, a Black Chamber of Commerce, and then we just have the plain Chamber of Commerce. Wonder who pays for that??


A white woman could not be in the Miss Black American pageant, but any color can be in the Miss America pageant.


If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships... You know we'd be racists..


There are over 60 openly proclaimed Black Colleges in the US . Yet if there were 'White colleges', that would be a racist college.


In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights, you would call us racists.


You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.


You rob us, carjack us, and shoot at us. But, when a white police officer shoots a black gang member or beats up a black drug dealer running from the law and posing a threat to society, you call him a racist.


I am proud.... But you call me a racist.


Why is it that only whites can be racists??


There is nothing improper about this e-mail.. Let's see which of you are proud enough to send it on. I sadly don't think many will.. That's why we have LOST most of OUR RIGHTS in this country. We won't stand up for ourselves!


BE PROUD TO BE WHITE!


It's not a crime YET... but getting very close!


Any thoughts?

ok so I'm going to do an update since it's been forever and i'll be gone at Otakon till Sunday night.First off I am super mad! I forgot my hungry costume at home and don't have time to go get it :( I've decided to just spiff up my Halloween costume that I wore and wear it for Otakon. I just finished the mask. It was a plain glow in the dark hockey mask before but now it has Jason markings.


I just finished putting the sharpie on tonight. Not too much work lol.I think it's a little lopsided but idk how obvious that is.

Here are some other pics from when i had it during Halloween.




This is Kayla and Me. This is also the machete I have for my costume!



These are my roommates during halloween with their costumes. They aren't dressing up as this for Otakon. I think they're doing school girls and I have no idea what Lily is doing.



This is me and a Ninja turtle. I will probably wear the skirt with boots like I did for Halloween, we'll see.

I have a lot of other stuff I've been up to like work mostly. But I'll have to update on that later because it's like 2am and I'm exhausted, still need to pack and finish getting things ready.

soooo wut the eff...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prmmCg5bKxA

If there is a girl who like sean kingston and justin bieber she needs to re-access her taste in men....or she a ho.

People are dropping like flies from our Otakon hotel. I hope we can still go but I don't know at this point since the price will be going up for all of us with everyone else ditching out. We'll see...

I have a little time so a quick update shall be done.

I'm am busy as crap this week! I have to finish my film analysis paper for Thursday night class and finish my presentation write up for my 9am class tomorrow. I also have a club meeting Thursday and need to talk to my adviser before then to get my RAC code since I have classes next fall aaannddd she won't e-mail me back. I am so marching in her office tomorrow...ugh she's so unorganized.

Good news is I'm going to Kayla's for Easter this weekend. A Catholic church service should be interesting lol. Except it's 1.5 hours long D: but I'll live haha. I want to hang out with her friends and family tooooo. Hopefully I'll get all my work done before driving my car off a bridge, whichever lol.

I learned more about Japanese culture yesterday! About marriage and dating, it was interesting.

Anyway off to the gym and then doing more work afterwords.